Thursday, November 17, 2011 @9:23 PM
Updates: "Littleness"I haven't been doing much reflection as i have quite many things to attend to. But i guess this is a time of doing the little things faithfully, and the "littleness" is in almost every aspect of my life. I mean, I am not really doing the "casting vision", "leading ministry/department" that i used to do. Initially, as quite a vocal person and also filled with ideas, I am not very used to it....but now, i am quite used to it already. I am not sure if I have lost that aspect of me....but, i just don't really feel it anymore. Maybe, God is developing another side of me.
Work:The "littleness" at work; I am doing case work and children/youth programs. At here, its really nice to be able to work with different families with different problems. I could go to 3 to 4 homes in one day...like this week, for 3 days, i had 3 to 4 homes to visit. I am always touched by the resilience some of my clients have, and at times, saddened by their situation. Sometimes, I am touched by my colleagues' passion and help rendered to these families and admired their skills and heart. Its great. I felt "little" in the midst of these "giant-social workers" and the "littleness" is great because I am constantly amazed/touched by their work. I am also doing administrative work in my youth/children program. Last time, I am super poor in admin. Not that I ver good at it now...but, I have gotten use to it. The "littleness" in the admin work before, made me rather unhappy and insignificant. Now, I am just glad to do it because its nice to see things neatly done and also helps to support my colleagues. What a change in attitude! Thank God that He helped me see things in perspective.
I started a prayer group at my work place so that we can direct our work to Lord Jesus. Its a small initiative and I like that. Its just being faithful in initiating and maintaining it. Frankly, though there are many Christians in my workplace, alot of them don't have the time to pray together or maybe not comfortable/ not interested....whatever the reason maybe, I know that I have taken a small step to bring God into our workplace! :)
Church
My church is small..and there is some sort of "littleness" in that. I am leading the children ministry and this year's Christmas musical. Though there are some kind of leadership in this, I just feel that the faithfulness and "littleness" is needed. There is no airy, fairy vision casting nor big groups of people to lead...but its just consistency, supporting and leading.
FamilyAt home, its no longer about me but also about Jon..its about little things in daily living like cooking, household chores, supporting Jon in his studies, taking care of health, simple times together, finance...its really the little things that counts, that maintains the relationship and household matters. Its the simple, little things. Also, the consistency in going to inlaws/mother's/dad's place....and doing those little things to spend time/appreciate.
SummaryI feel the "littleness" growing me...the support role...and, sometimes, its feels insignificant and ordinary..but its not a bad thing. Its God that is the "greatness", and we are nothing as we are here now and maybe gone tommorow. I give thanks for the "littleness" in this time and would like to grow from it..attributes of support, humility and faithfulness.