Death, Grieve...
Just came back from a friend's sister's wake. Life is fragile. There is so much strength, influence, sentiments..joy & pain..alot of meaning..but yet, fragile. I was reminded how lonely death can be for one.
"Even though I walk through the valley of shadow of death,
I fear no evil, for you are with me; Your rod and Your staff
they comfort me." ~Psalm 23:4
Nobody can go through death with you and only God. If you have God in your life, death can be an experience of God's faithfulness.
I was reflecting upon my life..sometimes, i seriously don't know what I am doing with it. Sometimes, I felt that I am wasting my time away..I do want to make an impact with the time I am left with. Nobody knows what is going to happen next. But, I know that the Lord is always with me whenever I go. I trust that my life is in His hands.
Lord, help me not to waste my time away with non important things but to continue to be purposeful with my time & energy. Help me not to waste my life away always thinking about myself but help me to always be filled with love, compassion and serving others. I cannot do without You and I need Your help. I pray this in the name of Jesus, amen.
Some quotes for my life by Mother Teresa:
"Intense love does not measure, it just gives.."
"Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary.
What we need is to love without being tired."
"In this life we cannot do great things. We can do small things with great love."
"Many people mistake our work for our vocation, our vocation is the love of
Jesus."
Reminded: Matthew 9:36
"but when He saw the multitudes, He was moved with compassion for them because they were weary and scattered like sheep without shepherd.."~ Matthew 9:36I was reminded of the little children Jesus loves when I chanced upon the Compassion Singapore
http://www.compassion.com.sg/ and a voice is needed for His people in the broken world. In these almost 2 years of my role as a children's worker, pioneering children services, i have little opportunities doing stuff for the poor & needy. I knew I was doing God's work...but somehow, I knew something is missing.
Recently, an opportunity came for me to go Batam (short-term missions) to serve the poor & needy. I am looking forward to it. I do not have many mission experiences but hope to use time i have over weekend to serve the poor & needy..My first trip will be on 10th July. I have to work that day actually but have gotten a kind colleague to replace me. Jon said that he will be going with me to support me.. :)
Looking forward.... :))))
Being Beautiful
Yesterday, (02 june), Jon and I had our monthly devotion. He FINALLY finished his exams!!! :)) YAY! As we flipped to our devotion book...it says:
"Likewise, ye wives, be in subjection to your own husbands.....whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and wearing of gold or of putting on of apparel..but let it be the hidden man of the heart...which is meek & quiet spirit which is in the sight of God of great price....likewise husbands, dwell with them according to knowledge, giving honour unto the wife.."
Just the night before as I was running, I was praying to the Lord about some matter in my heart, and I felt that the Lord wanted Jon & myself to talk about the topic "beauty~Inner & outer" We had a long, intensive discussion which turned into misunderstanding but it was clarified quite shortly after. Even though both of us dread conflicts or miscommunications, but I felt that it was all good especially when the topic was meant to be brought up for my sake.
Every woman long to beautiful and to captivate their partner's heart. But, the beauty we are talking about its not just outer beauty but also inner beauty. I too desire to be beautiful. But, beauty is not something to be strife for nor to create. To my understanding, it is really the inner being that can captivate and shine through. I don't think I have it all but the Lord has already blessed & given to me because I have Christ in me. I just need to surrender to Him. :)
When the night was about to end, we prayed for ourselves. I was very touched by Jon's prayer for himself and he didn't know-his prayer was an answer to mine. :)
This post is just to remind myself regarding this special night I had with the Lord & Jon.
Lastly, I leave with this:
God always love us more than we can ever love Him, more than we imagine.
Loved, cherished, treasured and protected by God & Jonwee.
It has been quite a loooong time since I wrote. As I clicked on my previous blog entries, I was like "WOW..that was quite a journey! & With the Lord." I would very much like to continue to track my growth, learnings & also to remind my myself about it.
Yesterday,(01June) I deeply comforted by the Lord's reminder....
"Yea though I walk through the valley of shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me." Psalm 23:4
I remembered a pastor's reminder during a funeral service that no matter what, we will depart this earth alone. Death is a lonely matter. Who can die with you? Even if your love ones are on the hospital bed, when you close your eyes, who is there with you? I could imagine it as the loneliest period of anyone's life. But, I was deeply comforted by those who has invited Jesus into their life because when they did, Jesus promises that He will never leave us even in the journey of death. I could imagine walking in darkness (shadow of valley of death) and Jesus holding my hands to the light. That's the promises of Jesus. He will never leave us. :)
Thank You Jesus